12-1-11

I'm hanging in there. Feeling anxiety of course. Today I am 8 weeks 4 days. I keep wondering if our little baby is still moving around in there. The farthest I've gotten is 8 weeks 3 days so I am super nervous. On a good note yesterday I had horrible and constant morning sickness all day and couldn't stop eating so I am praying that is a good sign. Hoping I have more of the same today. I wish I had another ultrasound next week but he says to wait until week 10. Dec 13th seems so far away. I just want to know our little ones heart is still beating strong you know? Wish I could fast forward to Dec 27th and be out of the first trimester already. The days pass by so slowly. 

Keeping the faith that God is watching over our little one and protecting him or her and this pregnancy.

Hormone Rage and Morning Sickness! 11-30-11

Wow- Last night I had a total hormone raging fit!  My poor husband.  I think everything just hit me at once, the stress, lack of sleep, raging hormones, nausea, etc.  I was trying to get to sleep and one thing after another kept happening.  The phone ringing constantly, trying to get our 2 year old to bed, and tossing and turning because it was hard to find a comfortable spot to lay my head.  I totally lost it and went off on my husband.  Thankfully I was able to calm down and apologize.

Morning Sickness-feeling nausous pretty much constantly.  I'm not complaining in fact I welcome it because I know it is a good sign but wow.  I am constantly trying to keep food in my stomach to help ease the symptoms but nothing seems to help.  I woke up at 5:30am and had intense hunger pains so I made myself an english muffin with peanut butter, bananas, and honey.  That seemed to help for a good hour but then I was starving again! 

I honestly don't care if I have morning sickness for the next 4-5 weeks.  Just get me to that next trimester with a healthy growing baby in me.

Update from Ultrasound #2 HEARTBEAT!! 10a 11/29/11

Ultrasound went great!  Strong heartbeat and baby measuring perfectly at 8 weeks 2 days!  We saw baby's legs and feet moving :)  What a beautiful sight to see! 

I'm still really nervous. My next ultrasound is two weeks from today. I'll be 10 weeks 2 days then. Praying everything looks good. It's been a stressful 8 weeks. I've just had so much anxiety. Going to acupuncture weekly to help with stress and sustain the pregnancy. 

Today we saw so much more than last week. It's amazing how much happens over the course of 7 days! Today he showed us baby's legs and feet and we watched him/her move around a bit. I've never gotten to see that before so it was exciting but I still find myself trying to stay detached somewhat because I've had the rug ripped out from underneath me so many times. Really trying to stay positive but I don't think I will be able to truly relax for a while. Maybe until week 20?

2 weeks seems so far away to see our baby again :(

wish I had an ultrasound machine so I could see him/her everyday but I know it's a good thing I don't

lol

What a wonderful day!  God is Good!

Anxiety 11-29-11

In less than 2 hours I go for my follow up ultrasound.  I didn't sleep at all last night.  Maybe a total of 3 hours?  My mind would not stop racing and it is still going which is why I am up so early writing.  Praying praying praying we see our little one's strong healthy heartbeat and he/she is measuring perfectly.

Heartbeat!

Went for my ultrasound yesterday and we saw a very healthy strong heartbeat!  I did another lipid treatment this morning and go for another ultrasound next Tuesday.  The doc was very optimistic and said he will be shocked it I don't carry this baby to term.  Next Tuesdays's ultrasound is an important one for us.  Praying we see baby's strong heartbeat again :)

Anxiety and Morning Sickness 11-16-11

This morning I had the worst morning sickness. I just felt awful. I tried to eat my gummy vitamin and almost threw up.  I pray this is a good sign.  I finally was able to get some yogurt and cottage cheese down with some cantaloupe.  Waiting for the Lovenox shipment to arrive in the mail.  I'm almost out of heparin and it is supposed to be here before noon.  Yesterday I had to deal with the insurance company on coverage for the new meds.  I kind of went into panic mode for a little bit but I think we have it all straightened out.

I want this pregnancy to be successful so badly.  I pray to God and St. Gerard every day.  Anxiety creeps in when I think about the future.  I'm really trying to focus on being in the present but it's hard.  My mind likes to wander.

11-13-11

Every morning I wake up with anxiety.  Today of course I have it but Kayla is helping surpress the feelings a bit.  She is so amazing.  I look at her and have to pinch myself to make sure I'm not dreaming and she is really my daughter.  I love her so much.  2 year olds are so darn cute.  They are so sweet and considerate (when they aren't having tantrums or melt downs).  We are very lucky to have K.  She is a bright little girl and her terrible two incidents are few. 

Tomorrow I go back to acupuncture.  I am really looking forward to relaxing and pampering myself.