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Sunday, October 9, 2011

Feeling Free!

I'm totally drunk as I write this and you know what?  It feels freeing!  Tonight I went out to The Best of Phoenix Party and got my drunk on and partied with friends.  I haven't had a drink in 6 months and I had the best night ever.  I'm tired of hoping and wishing I was pregnant successfully.  I'm tired of being a slave to my body.  Tonight I let loose.  I ate sugar, I drank alcohol  and just had fun being me for once. I miss the carefree me I used to be. 

 Not Lisa, trying to get pregnant, not Lisa trying to get stay healthy and do the right thing.  Just Lisa, having fun. I finally told my friend Jill about our adoption and I really feel free and happy.  For so long I have followed the rules,  done the right thing.  Tonight was my night to enjoy, indulge and just be.  It's 12:43am.  Wish the night didn't have to end but you know what?  That is what being a parent is all about and I wouldn't change it for the world.  I am so proud and thankful to be Kayla's mommy and so happy I have a child to come home to.  She is my world ( as well as my hubby) and I can't imagine my life without either of them.  Cheers to a great night and a wonderful life!


  1. Glad you had a great night! We all need those every once in a while (lately, mine have been more frequent and I love it!)

  2. I did that before my last IUI and it was my miraculous BFP!! I guess letting your hair down does work sometimes! GL!!