I'm totally drunk as I write this and you know what? It feels freeing! Tonight I went out to The Best of Phoenix Party and got my drunk on and partied with friends. I haven't had a drink in 6 months and I had the best night ever. I'm tired of hoping and wishing I was pregnant successfully. I'm tired of being a slave to my body. Tonight I let loose. I ate sugar, I drank alcohol and just had fun being me for once. I miss the carefree me I used to be.
Not Lisa, trying to get pregnant, not Lisa trying to get stay healthy and do the right thing. Just Lisa, having fun. I finally told my friend Jill about our adoption and I really feel free and happy. For so long I have followed the rules, done the right thing. Tonight was my night to enjoy, indulge and just be. It's 12:43am. Wish the night didn't have to end but you know what? That is what being a parent is all about and I wouldn't change it for the world. I am so proud and thankful to be Kayla's mommy and so happy I have a child to come home to. She is my world ( as well as my hubby) and I can't imagine my life without either of them. Cheers to a great night and a wonderful life!