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Sunday, October 2, 2011

Cycle 3 is a Bust!

Pretty sure cycle 3 is a bust :(  Having cramping and light spotting. Yesterday I was in the worst mood ever.  Nothing I did helped.  A nap, working out, a bath.  I was so hormonal and angry about everything.

I probably won't even have to go in for my blood test again this cycle.  Maybe I should make an appointment to talk with the doctor before we attempt cycle 4.  Not sure what he is going to tell me other than we could try IUI but I have heard the success rate isn't all that great and it's more money we keep throwing into that fertility pot. There is no guarantee once I do get pregnant that I will carry to term.

Last night I had a good talk with my hubby.  He said he was open to another adoption which made me happy.  If I had it my way I would start the adoption process now and still continue with the medicated cycles. 

Feeling down today.  What should I do?  Am I taking this too far?  Should I stop putting myself and family through this emotional roller coaster?  Do I give up?  Should I let go?

Part of me just wants to but there is a small voice in me that says "No! You could almost be there!"

I always believed that if I worked hard enough for something I would get it.  I have put everything I have into this for almost 6 years.  Maybe this just isn't one of those things that applies.

Just feeling blah.

Found this quote and it is keeping me some what afloat this morning.

Don’t be discouraged. It’s often the last key in the bunch that opens the lock. - Author Unknown


  1. What a great quote ... Keep your head up :) I agree with starting the adoption process regardless and continue with trying until you feel ready to stop.
    As for me .. My husband and I are on a 6 month break from trying and have decided to either start ivf or adoption after the new year. We are fostering in the meantime which has kept my mind busy and happily distracted :)

  2. Thanks Nicole- I am trying to keep my head up but it's hard. Just having a blah weekend I think. I'll snap out of it and get back on track again. You are fostering right now? That's awesome!! How many kids are you fostering and what are their ages? Best of luck in 2012 with whichever path your decide.

  3. We fostered a newborn from march - aug then took a month off and now have 2 brothers ages 2 months and 4 years.... It's an adventure :)