Livie Marie is 3 months old today!

Livie is 3 months old today!  It's hard to believe all we have been through in the past year but I am happy to say she is almost 7 pounds and doing well (aside from some reflux issues)  My job search is going okay.  Have a few things in the works but in the mean time it is hard because my hubby is working a lot of over time so I never really get to see him.  Hoping we can spend some time together next weekend.  I am in desperate need of a vacation!

With Good comes some Bad it seems....

On Friday the 13th I was laid off from my job.  I had worked there almost 4 years.  When I went into the hospital due to my water breaking early I got a call from my employer in my hospital room telling me they were stopping my pay until Livie was born.  Then I  had to take 3 weeks unpaid to recover from my C section while she was in the NICU.  I was given 3 weeks paid leave once she was discharged but then laid off 8 days after returning from maternity leave.  I'm a firm believer that things happen for a reason but I just don't understand,  After everything we have been through this year (some of which I didn't write about on here) how could I lose my job too?  I know hindsight is 20/20 and it's always hard to understand why things happen until later but seriously, can I catch a break?  I won't go into my feelings about being laid off on here.  But obviously I'm upset.   


Needless to say, as soon as I was laid off I was on the computer networking and applying for jobs.  I have some potential leads and have had interviews but nothing concrete as of yet.  My full time job as of right now is MOMMY and WIFE. 


Even though things aren't perfect right now I am still blessed and happy. I know the right opportunity will come its way at the right time.  At least I have my loving husband, my two beautiful girls, my supportive parents, and some truly amazing friends.  

Thank You all for your love and support.

I'm the Living Proof

This song reminds me of this long journey we have travelled. I'm living proof that if you don't give up you will succeed and your dreams will come true.

The Living Proof

By: Mary J Blige

It's gonna be a long long journey

It's gonna be an uphill climb

It's gonna be a tough fight

It's gonna be some lonely nights

But I'm ready to carry on

I'm so glad the worst is over

I can start living now,

ooh I feel like I can do anythin'

And finally I'm not afraid to breathe

Anything you say to me

And everything you do

You can't deny the truth

Cause I'm the living proof

So many don't survive

They just don't make it through

But look at me ooh I'm the living proof

Oh yes I am

Thinkin' back life's been painful

Yes it was

Took a while to learn how to smile

So now I'm gonna talk to my people oh

About the storm oh about the storm

Oh so glad the worst is over

I can start flyin' now oh

My best days are right in front of me

And I'm almost there

Cause now I am free

Anything you say to me

And everything you do

You can't deny the truth

Cause I'm the living proof

So many don't survive

They just don't make it through

But look at me

I'm the living proof

I know where I'm goin' hey

Cause I know where I've been

oh I gotta few stars that showin' hey

I'm gonna stay strong keep goin' That's the way that I will

Anything you say to me

And everything you do

You can't deny the truth

Cause I'm the living proof oh

So many don't survive

They just don't make it through

But look at me yeah yeah

I'm the living proof

Nothing about my life's been easy

But nothings gonna keep me down

Cause I know a lot more today

Than I knew yesterday

July 10th 2012- My Due Date

Lately I have been feeling a little bit of anxiety and wasn't sure why and then I realized what was approaching.  I know some may not understand this but I kind of mourn the loss of my EDD (estimated due date). I am over the moon with joy that Livie is here and we are both safe and sound but part of me can't help but wonder what my 3rd trimester would have been like.  What my birth experience would have been had I gone full term.  I know it's silly.  None of this matters anymore because I finally did it, she is here, and I am very blessed and thankful she is okay.

Yesterday was her 2 month check up.  The doctor said she looked perfect.  She is now 5 pounds 14 oz and  19 inches long which gives us a great idea of how big she would have been had I given birth to her today.  Today we begin her adjusted age.  So developmentally we would expect her to be that of a newborn.  On August 10th she will be 1 month old (adjusted) but 3 months actual.  According to the regular scale of a typical 2 month old she is in the 3 percentile in weight and the 10th percentile in height.  She is a tiny peanut but a cute one at that!


I guess life and God have their own ways of making things work out and we have no control over them as much as we try.  Livie arrived early for a reason and she couldn't be more perfect. (except for the fact that her little socks still don't stay on her feet and her preemie clothes are too small but newborn clothes are too big  LOL)  but those are all little things that don't matter and that I find very cute.  She is our little Livie, our little peanut, and I wouldn't change anything about her for the world.  She truly is our little miracle.

2 months old, visiting IVF Phoenix and the 4th of July!

 2 MONTHS OLD!

It's hard to believe Livie is 2 months old already and she isn't even due until next Tuesday July 10th!  She is eating up a storm and sleeping a lot.......during the day which means mommy and daddy aren't sleeping much at night.  We have our 2 month check up on Monday for her official weigh in but I did my own unofficial weigh in yesterday and came up with 6.5 pounds.  We shall see on Monday but had she gone full term she probably would have been a 6 pounder which is what I was when I was born.  Not looking forward to her getting her shots on Monday which is why I am making daddy come with us.LOL  It always breaks my heart when they have to get those but I know it is for their health.  In the mean time we will continue to work on our tummy time, increasing our feeds, and trying to get on some sort of schedule.

THANK YOU IVF PHOENIX AND DR. COUVARAS!

On Saturday we went and showed off our miracle to the amazing doctor that finally helped us carry to term.  We couldn't  have done it without Dr. Couvaras at IVF Phoenix.  He never gave up on us and kept searching for the reasons why we kept losing our babies around the 8th week of each pregnancy. I love him because he thinks "outside the box" to figure out why.  Other doctors would take one look at my history and say, "sorry it isn't possible.  Your best bet is IVF with Donor Egg." Finally, after 9 pregnancies and 8 losses, we brought our precious baby home. (no IVF and no donor eggs needed)



                                           Celebrating the 4th of July!

It was a fun filled 4th complete with swimming, BBQing, and fireworks.  Aunt and Uncles and cousins came to hang out and share in the celebration.