Ugh I'm so annoyed and frustrated!! Apparently over the course of 6 weeks I was supposed to go for weekly blood draws bc I'm on heparin so they could adjust it as needed. It didn't say that on the paper anything about those labs. They said it isn't a big deal but it is to me! I wanted to do the 100% correct. My only saving grace is that I'm not trying to sustain a pregnancy at this exact moment. I went back and looked at the paperwork and all it said was SQ next to the word Heparin. (Meaning Sonora Quest) I'm not a fricking code reader! Sorry to vent. I called DH and he blew me off. I think I'm just emotional. I'm just so ready to be done with this. I just want to cry right now and scream WHY CANT I JUST BE A NORMAL PREGNANT WOMAN??? You know, sometimes I pretend I am. Especially when talking to people that don't know my history or that K is adopted.
I go again today to get my PPT (the heparin blood draw) which has to be taken 6 hours after my first injections. I'm so tired of all of the rules, the pills, the wishing, the hoping, the praying. I just want this to be easy. It's been 5 1/2 years and 8 pregnancies and I still haven't carried to term. WTF????
I just feel so alone. I'm starting to feel defeated. What if all of my heard work just isn't enough? I just want to cry right now. My stomach is so bruised and bloated I feel like a whale. I would be excited if there was a baby in there but right now it's just that way because of the injections. Please somebody tell me this is going to work!!!